"No, You Can't Do That"

It had been 19 years since we launched our ministry to impoverished children and families.  Throughout that time and by God’s grace, we had built a 27,000 sq. ft. facility situated on 15 acres.  We ministered to thousands of low-income families every year, conducted after-school programs, and even started a Christian School.

Although the overall ministry was my husband’s vision and calling, the school became my baby.  My administration, leadership, and writing gifts finally had a place to flourish, and I loved everything about Jordan Christian Academy.  It felt like I finally fit somewhere.

In our school’s tenth year, my husband said to me, “I’ve been praying, and I think God is calling me to close the school.”

“What? NO!” I said. 

I could not believe my ears.  I thought to myself, “There is no possible way God is leading you to close the school!”  After my unfavorable reaction, he told me to pray about it because he was convinced it was of the Lord.

I admit I did not want to pray about it.  I did not want to entertain the idea of losing something that finally made me feel useful in ministry and that I loved so much.  But I prayed anyway.

A few days later, and to my complete surprise, I felt a peace that the Bible describes as passing all understanding.  I knew this decision was right, even though it made no logical sense to me.

Letting go of the school and my main ministry outlet was devastating, especially not knowing what Jesus had for me next.  But I can tell you that Jesus is faithful!  He walked me through that difficult time and has since used my gifts in ways I never could have anticipated.

Often, we cannot see “then” what we see clearly “now.”  But, then again, if Jesus revealed everything to us, why would faith be necessary?